Thursday, May 21, 2009

Tired

I'm tired. That's why I haven't posted in a while. I just can't seem to catch up on sleep. I know this is the period of my life when sleep is a luxury and someday I'll look back and wish that I was sleepless again. But I'm having trouble cherishing these moments of pure exhaustion.

Alex is still nuring very frequently--during the day he's still nursing about every 2-3 hours and for some reason, that seems to be really frequent at almost 4 months old. I feel like I remember the girls nursing less frequently by this age. Maybe I'm wrong and it's that ability of a mom to forget things like labor, delivery, episiotomies, etc. kicking into gear. But it seems like he should be able to go a bit longer.

We've started all of our kiddos on solid foods at 4 months so maybe if we get him started next week, he'll start to space out his feedings...maybe.

The weather has been beautiful so that helps but it makes me feel like even more of a dud when I'm too exhausted to go out and enjoy it. Today, Charlotte said when I woke her from her nap, "Mama, you can lie down with me." I told her it was time for her to get up and I had to make dinner anyway. Her reply was, "Well, after you make us dinner, maybe you can just go to bed." Ah, wouldn't that be dreamy? But alas, I have other jobs to do after dinner and after the girls are in bed.

Someday I'll sleep, right? And I'm sure I WILL look back on these times and long for them. I'm sure. I think.

1 comment:

Janelle said...

Ah! Girlie! I'm sorry that you are so tired! Maybe it has something to do with all of the birthday parties, baptisms, family weekends you've been having? That would wear anyone out! Don't feel bad because you have a 4 month old and are tired!

It's just around the corner when he'll go longer, I promise. And then you'll feel like you got a new lease on life! I remember those days, you just have to muscle through until you get there.

Hang in there! I'll pray for restful sleep too-sometimes if you can just sleep well when you do get to sleep that makes all the difference!